Not Me!

I try to tell myself that it's OK - if he didn't choose me. I try to tell myself it's OK - I can get over him. I try to tell myself that a better day is coming and to be patient. I'm trying to convince myself that I don't love him and that I can get along without him. I'm trying to convince myself that it doesn't matter if I wasn't his first and only choice.

Who am I kidding? It hurts like hell that I'm not with him. I'm so distraught over the fact that he isn't around anymore. Stop telling yourself that it's OK. Accept the pain and the reality that you still love the man. Love in all of its beauty can be very painful. This is one of the reason people sometimes shelter themselves from love. They build up a wall and will not allow anyone in their heart. If you are in love with someone and it is not being returned, accept the fact of where you are. Don't try to figure out why your love wasn't returned. Just know that you gave it your all and this was not what the other person wanted. Lesson learned from this experience should be for you not to build a wall around you, but to toughen up a little for the next merry go round of love and when it spins again, be prepared for the ride.